Thursday, May 24, 2012

Tonight

         Don't know why, I feel like wanna blog tonite. Now I am listening some soft song, try to enjoy my last  few hours before I sleep. Found some nice voices at youtube. One of my favourite song is "The One That Got Away", every time when I'm driving, if this song is played on radio, I will feel good. I will definitely turn the volume up. =D 

Can't stop listening this song.
This song combines two songs, which is "The One That Got Away" and "Use Somebody"
They are so talented. =)

         Feeling sentimental tonight. Repeat and repeat listening to the song. I suppose to sleep now, just feel like wanna write something, something about what I feel and think. I'm flashing back my memories, I have good and bad memories. Guess tonight is the night for me to review and have a deep thought. Nothing is absolute, everything can be quite subjective. Sometimes, I feel I have several characters. 

         Year after year, I slowly change, of course maybe in some aspect I had improved, and some might turn into worse. It's a very subjective question: good or bad. Different people holds different perspective, some buy it, some can not take it. However, no one is a total bad person. Everyone has flaws, people make mistake. Surely they have their advantage and beautiful part. 

        As time goes by, more and more challenges are awaiting me. This is life. Life is all about problem solving and decision making. The way we solve a problem determine how it end. No doubt, I'm weak in this. Sometimes, I will think what if...how if...but when I think like this, usually I had already made a different decision. However, life is like this, no turning back. Only two options available: to grief on the past or move forward and learn it as a lesson. 

        

'I won't give up' by Alex G Acoustic ft Tyler Ward.
Another nice song that I favour.

            Sometimes, one thing good about a relationship with people (either family, boyfriend or friend) is that you  can realize your own weakness. But I have to clarify that not necessary every advise is correct, we have to filter and judge by our own. The most frequent question is people tend to believe what they think is correct. It happen on me as well, I'm quite reluctant to accept criticism. Well, people only like to hear beautiful word. But after everything settle down, when I'm alone, at a silent night like this, I will think. 


         I also learned one thing. In this world, for sure there is someone like you and at the same time someone hate you. When a person like you, everything they see in you is good and beautiful thing. If they hate you, probably a single breath also will be emphasize as a mistake and an issue to critic on. It's useless to care or explain, because they had already close their door. Like how I wrote at my fb: '会明白的,他就会明白。不明白的,就算了。'

             
   I remember a story, a blank white paper has a ink mark on the paper. A ask B: "What do you see?" B: "A dot of ink on the paper." B:" Indeed the paper has a ink on it, but the clean area is far more bigger than the polluted area."  When thing happen, most of us will emphasize the problem and we forget to look at the bright side. 




Everything will fade away, nothing is forever. One day everything will become just a memory. 
Who is right and who is wrong, doesn't really matter.
Important is what you want and what you think you should appreciate.
If you think that thing is not deserve you to give a damn,
then no one else in this world can make you do.


= The end =


P/S: Every day is a new start. There is nothing as "too late" in life.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

捐血记

         It's time to update my bloggie again!! Hehe...This time I wanna share with you all about my first experience to donate blood. How to describe my feeling...hm....Excited, nervous, scare and also happy....I think these were my feeling at that moment. I felt excited because this was my first time, I felt nervous and scare because this was my first time. And happy, also because it's was my first time. Hahahaha...(Lame..I know I know..=D) But, its true that I felt good although I actually kinda terrified. It's not easy for me to make this decision, as I really scare of blood and needle. However, I had done a good thing, and I'm happy. Wakaka...Let the pictures tell the story. =)

                
Me while doing blood test. Don't dare to look at it. 
Not really ready at that time. >.<



Quite a lot of procedures  to donate blood. =.= 
Need to fill in forms, answer some health question. Zzzz...
I remember that one of the section in the form has several questions regarding to sex.
Some sort like: "Do you have HIV?" " Are you gay/lesbian?" "Do you change partner with other?" @.@
And the funny part was the doctor seems like suspect me for conducting activities as above. *fainted*
When I say: "Of course NO lah!!" I was like crazy meh..Zzzz...
Then the doc ask again..:'Sure?" I said:'YES!" And he repeat:"100% confirm?" 
Wth...I think I got face issue here. Zzzzz...
 After that, I think he just wanna '100% confirm' the blood is 'clean' to use,
 should be not my face problem.
Hahaha...



Scary moment began...
Heart beat started to beat faster and faster.
Still can smile at this time.
Omg...=.=



The most terrifying moment.
The nurse was trying to puncture the needle to my nerve.
Very very scare now.



Then my blood began to flow out from my body to the blood pack.
I can feel the warmth of the pipe. 



My blood. 
Can't imagine this is my blood!!
The color so......dark red...@.@
And it flowing so fast.
So disgusting... 
Yiak....




           Then my colleague asked me how I feel. I said ok ah, not as horrible as I imagine. Actually It's not that pain as what I thought. They wanted me to post like this. *good* Hahaha....

          After I posted *good* and took a photo. I felt something not right.....I can't breath smoothly... I felt dizzy.... Then I told my colleague: "I macam ada sedikit pening lor." Then I saw many nurse ran so fast toward me..SWT...




Suddenly I can't hear anything.
Everything was black-out.
I fainted. Zzzz....
My first time to faint too. 
Now I know the feeling of pass out already. Haha...



I feel proud of myself. Hehe...
A simple thing, but it can save a life.
It's a very meaningful thing to do.

             After donation, I had an thought. I don't where my blood will be sent to. I don't my blood will be used for whom. I don't when it will be used. But, a thing I can be certain is...I can help someone who need help. I don't know how to explain this feeling, but this is simply amazing.

             That day, I heard people said that if you start to donate blood, you will fall in love with doing it. At first, I don't really understand why they said so. After the donation, I think I understand already. It's the feeling of satisfaction. When you know you have done a good thing, although we don't get any profit from that. But, deep in our heart, we know this a right thing to do.


That's all for this post, Gonna end here.
Thanks for reading my blog.
Have a nice dreams.
See you at next post.
Tata. =)


P/S: Control the surrounding, not to be controlled by the surrounding. You decide who you are.